I think it's quite funny how we can change our minds so easily. One minute we believe and feel one way about a subject, and then the next moment we do a 180 and feel the complete opposite about it. I happened to find the perfect example of this in my own daily life: College.
Yes, college. I am at the stage and time in my life when it is time to start applying to colleges and really think about my future. What am I going to do to make sure I can provide myself with a good life in the future, and how am I going to do that? Most importantly, which college is the college that I believe is going to help me make that possible?
Whoever said senor year of high school was easy was dead wrong.
Anyway, back to the subject.
During summer and the very beginning of the school year I was dreading college. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and I felt very unprepared (random fact about me: I hate feeling unprepared). Almost every adult that I talked to would ask about what college I wanted to go to, what major I was thinking about going into, and what I wanted to be when I "grew up". I didn't have answers to any of these questions and I felt like I was already going into college as a failure. All in all, college was the last thing that I wanted to think or talk about.
Then one day one of my best friends, who is a freshmen in college, came back to visit for a weekend. We sat on her bed in her bedroom and I listened to her talk about how amazing college was and how much she loved it. She told me all about college life and all the friends she made that I began to feel a little longing to be in college. But not enough that it completely changed my views. It wasn't really until after I had finished my college application and sent them in that it hit me: I actually wanted to go to college.
Now I am excited about all of it. I'm excited to live in the dorms, even though I heard that living in small rooms in such close proximity to other people can get annoying after awhile; I'm excited to explore my interests by taking a lot of different classes; I'm excited to not be living with my parents anymore; I'm excited to make new friends; and most importantly I'm excited to find out who I really am.
Currently, I'm just waiting to hear back from all the colleges that I applied to. So, keep your fingers crossed!
See you around,